Okay. This might be my last blog post till after SPM. SPM is merely three weeks away and I thought if I didn’t blog this now, I will not have the chance to blog about it later.

SPM starts on the 18^th of November and ends on the 8^th of December, for me. Those who took up Chinese, I feel sorry for you. *laugh heinously* I mean, thank God I dropped Chinese right before PMR, or not I would have to suffer for a few more days while the rest of the world are partying already. For those who will be sitting for their Chinese paper. No offense alright? *giggles* We good?

Alright, let me start off with this little furious looking girl in tudung and old spectacles that adds on to her stern-looking face on the very first day of secondary school. Her name is Ain Marhan Muhamad, which was altered by me later to Aini Marhani Muhamad.

On the first day, we had to introduce ourselves to our classmates. My first impression on this girl was ‘That girl looks so angry and scary. I am so not going to mess with her’. And when it was her turn, she stood up confidently and spoke with authority. LOL. Maybe not authority, I rephrase, she spoke ferociously. Don’t kill me. That was what I remembered.

And so happened, as if by fate, we were grouped together during some ice-breaking game along with two other guys. And amazingly, we went along very well indeed. Since then, I started talking to her and made her one of my few best friends. Although I was hurt sometimes by her words, not because she was callous, but because I was not strong enough to take in jokes and opinions about myself, I tried to ignore her at the early stage but find it difficult to, so I learned how to be strong.

During the first year, I caused some havoc with some guy and was stabbed in the back by a close friend, it was as if I was thrown in a corner and had millions of knives stabbed into my heart. And she was the one who came to comfort me and she told me that I have to learn how to be strong and to not be offended easily by people’s words. Then, I took everyone’s words into my heart and if it wasn’t something that I like, I’d be all teary and would engage myself in thoughts for a couple of weeks or so. Since she told me to ignore whatever people had to say, I often wonder how did she learn to do it.

When we were sophomores, we joined hell lot of camps and had a lot of fun, especially the Sungai Dusun camp. Despite the leeches, we really experienced a lot of things together and learned to value each other better. Sophomore year was only about camps, as far as I remember, it was. xD Oh and the gigolo shack we had in class and the red book filled with secrets from all of us. Yeah, the red book that witnessed so many fights and happy moments of all of us.

Our third year was stressful? Besides the studying, I remember clearly how she picked on my dry scalp after I came back to school after 3 days straight of attending MSSD. The scorching sun totally burned my skin and haha, why am I talking about this? LOL. Fourth year was pretty busy and we had a lot of issues with a lot of teachers because we were always so busy helping out with all the events and camps and were hardly in class. This year, she finally found out who really are her best friends that would stay by her whenever something goes wrong. And compared to the Ain that I know 4 years back, this Ain has really grown a lot, not literally!

But no matter what happens in the future, you moving to another state or me going overseas, this friendship and the happy memories will always remain in our hearts. If anyone ever shoves their feet in front of your face, remember Quek Hui Jiun, because she was the first one who did it when nobody refused to take that f***ing leech off her feet at the Sungai Dusun camp. xD

Next on the list, Chan Song Ian. I won’t say he’s the nicest person on earth, but he still is one of my best buddies. I realized recently we weren’t talking to each other like how we used to. Our recent conversations are not really conversations because it was all filled with teases only! And he was not the one being teased, I am. Well, I forgive him because I understand this could be what SPM is doing to him or he really has turned nutcase after what you-don’t-need-to-know-who has done to him.

On our very first year, I sort of noticed him, not because he’s good looking or anything, I just noticed him and marked him as a nerd. After some time, we started talking to each other and he really was a nerd! Well, I am sorry to say this but he used to have oval-shaped golden glasses and side-parting and it looked as if he combed every strand of them right into place with a lot of gel before he comes to school. That explains pretty much, doesn’t it?

When we got friendlier with each other, I tend to turn around and call him ‘from the 60s’. You know how immature we were when we were young. I got closer to him after our sophomore year through Prashanth and we started off as buddies whom you go to whenever you have something you want to talk to but not just to anyone. We often advise each other about matters like love life, peer issues and stuff.

During our fourth year, we argued once and then we shunned each other for a couple of months and then our friendship started to build up again after that. This year, I don’t know how to say, it was utterly filled with none other than jokes. At some point I felt like I was some clown or something because everything I do can be made into a joke by this fellow. But of course, he did not do it in a callous way.

Like the time I mistaken ‘ballet’ as ‘malay’ and ran into a rope in public and so many more. Well, I bet those who know this inside joke would be laughing already. But no matter how much we tease each other, we know we truly care about each other as a friend. And the same thing again, no matter where we are in the future, these memories will stay with us for life! And if any other future friends’ of yours ran into a rope in public and then swayed her hair to get out of it, remember Quek Hui Jiun, the girl you once teased and go around spreading this embarrassing news the next day.

That’s all for today. Remember to check back to find out if you are in the next episode or not.

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Two posts in one hour? That's too much to handle. Seriously, I am writing this, just for fun. :)

Let’s see :

I LOVE :

Skipping school

Calculations

Fruit tarts

My cousins

Buying dresses

Going on a VACATION

Ireland’s Potatoes

Holidays

MY BED!

Okay, I’m off to bed now. :)

After living for 17 years and 6 months, I finally realized a few disadvantages of life. I never had to really experience it until now, just when I started to put all my heart in it. I completely devoted myself to it and from it I seek happiness. But unfortunately, I wasn’t aware that depression was part of the package. I had no choice but to face those melancholy thoughts. Finally I am able to comprehend the sadness behind the old saying, that is when people come together, no doubt that there’d be a parting. It finally sank in and hit me real hard this time. What she said was true, we all grow up and one day, we have to lead our own lives. Leaving all but taking away mere memories, to live life anew and make progress for future’s sake.

Apart from that, I finally realized that the world is how it is, that nothing will ever be perfect, no matter how hard we try. Everything has their flaw, no one is perfect. A sudden pang of conscience awakened me from my fantasy land. Realizing that I should not expect things or people to always be perfect, I felt sick. Ugghhh…

Talking about feelings, I never liked her condescending attitude. Who does she think she is? She clearly is suffering from delusions of grandeur. And that really irked me. She was once a very close friend but not anymore. She started judging and criticizing, then she isolated herself from us because she thought she was too good to be with us. I wonder how long will it take until she finally runs out of friends.